About Me

It's hard to write about me. The definition of me was forever changed on March 7, 2014. That was the day that at 25 weeks pregnant I developed a rare complication of pregnancy called HELLP syndrome. The only option for me was delivery.

We were (still are) happily married with a 2 yr old son, and our second son on the way, due to be born June 15, 2014. Our world came crashing down on March 7, 2014, when I developed severe life-threatening HELLP syndrome, and our beloved Malachi James Gordon was born at 25 weeks, 5 days gestation. For 127 days he fought like a warrior. Making it through things the doctors said he wouldn't live through. Ultimately on July 12, 2014 he was called home to be with Jesus. His fight here on earth was over, but his legacy of hope still lives. His life verse is Hebrews 6:19 "We have this HOPE as an anchor for our soul, firm and secure." He taught us how to live with a constant hope, that even in the darkest night, the light can shine through. He taught us to never give up even when the odds were stacked against us. He showed us was it looked like to fight. He has taught me that even in the short time he had here with us, he lived an abundant life! John 10:10, He lived a life that Christ said He came to give. The pain is fresh, raw and real. The healing....is also real.

This blog includes Malachi's story. It includes our journey through this grief. Learning how to find joy in the darkest moments. Learning to live with one foot in joy and one foot in grief. Learning how these two can co-exist. Daily I fall before the throne of Jesus and give him my tears and my broken heart. Daily he wraps me in his comfort and shows me, that Him, His nature, His love, His ways are good.

Thank you for joining us on this journey!